Martha Barwood
Regency Romance Author
A HaplessLady's Duke
Chapter One – Chapter Two – Chapter Three
Chapter One
“Do you want to die a spinster?”
The words replayed in Lady Emily Clifton’s mind. It was like a slap of a whip every time it did, reminding her of society’s opinion of her. She had been asked that question a few years ago by one of the ladies of the ton.
Another had followed by saying, “Perhaps, she’s just unlucky with prospects.”
The derisive laughter that ensued at that moment made Emily wish the earth would open up and consume her. She could not simply take her leave, so she remained, her lips pressed together and her gaze averted from the ladies. Her cheeks were a deep crimson from mortification.
It’s just a silly comment, she had thought, assuming it would blow over and be forgotten soon. After all, if there was one thing that was never lacking in high society, it was gossip. Undoubtedly, the ladies of the ton would find another subject of gossip to occupy themselves with. However, much to her displeasure, that silly comment somehow did the rounds, and it stuck. Rumours were everywhere about how unlucky she was with the prospect of finding a match.
Even now, years later, she still couldn’t get rid of the status that had been associated with her.
Unlucky.
She abhorred that word.
Standing by one of the windows in the modiste’s shop, she observed the flourish of beauty and youthfulness that filled the streets. Excited debutantes moved through the somewhat narrow streets, hurrying to whatever social engagements they had, some in carriages and others on foot. One thing that was common among them was the hopeful smiles that etched their faces.
It was the start of the London Season, and as always, the streets had come alive with the clattering hooves of horses and the rickety sounds of carriage tyres. Like every Season, it was a time when many young ladies came into the marriage mart, the Season aglow in their eyes.
Emily couldn’t help but feel a heavy weight settle on her chest as she watched them. Despite the excitement and buzz—not to mention the gossip and rumours that went about—the Season reminded her of a time in her life that brought about that word she hated. It was a reminder of a life she couldn’t reach, irrespective of how close it once was.
Six years ago, she had been a debutante. Six years later, she was still a spinster. Hope was a distant tune she listened to now. With each second that passed, she felt her chance at ever redeeming herself of that status move further away.
Emily turned away from the window and faced her reflection in the large mirror that leaned against the wall. She didn’t have to move closer to notice the fine lines that crinkled the corners of her eyes, another reminder that time certainly wasn’t her dear friend.
A sigh left her lips. Six Seasons ago, she had been eighteen and was a highly sought-after debutante with the possibility of a happy-ever-after life. She was a promising match, with glowing, youthful skin and grace that pulled men in. Even the vicious ton could agree to that. A distant memory crossed her mind, and she grimaced.
***
Six years ago…
It was a delightful evening in London. Emily watched with bright eyes and a pleased smile as handsome men and gorgeous women moved about the ballroom. The Almack’s ballroom twinkled before her eyes, the dim candlelight adding to the allure of the room. A well-composed minuet was being played by an orchestra stationed at a corner.
Light chatter filled the room as greetings were extended.
Emily stood next to her older brother, Lord Richard Clifton. They were by the edge of the dance floor, where she was fidgeting with her fingers as she regarded the men and women dancing. She ran her hands over her dress, smiling briefly at the thought that, if anything, she was undoubtedly well-dressed.
Her dress was a light blue piece the modiste had tailored for her. It complemented her skin colour nicely. Her honey-blonde hair was curled to perfection, half of its tresses cascading down her back and the other half sitting in a twist atop her head. A few tendrils framed her face, and she had fought every urge to fiddle with them.
This was the first ball of the Season, and all in high society were present. She had to be of her best composure tonight.
The occasional glances, the stares and smiles she got from some of the gentlemen assured her that she appeared enthralling to their eyes. Perhaps, soon, a few of them would make their way over to her. She sure hoped they did.
Her chest pounded with excitement as she mused over the possible ways tonight could go.
“Do I seem nervous?” she inquired of her brother suddenly. From the moment they arrived, he’d been scanning the crowd.
“Yes, you do,” Richard replied, glancing at her with a teasing look in his eyes. “If it wasn’t obvious, your hands would give you away.”
Emily at once stopped her hands from fidgeting. Out of the corner of her eye, she caught the upward curve of her brother’s lips.
“You look most enchanting tonight, Emily,” he told her sincerely. “If none of these men can see that, then there surely must be something wrong with their sight. You, my dear, are certainly a sight for sore eyes if I do say so myself.”
A wide smile crossed Emily’s face. “Why, thank you, dear brother. Your kind words are most sincerely appreciated.”
Richard offered a smile to her. “It is such a shame that father couldn’t make it tonight. He is rather occupied with matters of the estate that cannot be neglected any further.”
“Is there a problem with the estate?” Emily asked, angling her head towards her brother. She knew she wasn’t to bother herself with matters as such. However, she liked to think she could be more beneficial to her family than just being a bride to someone in high society.
“Trouble not with such matters, dear sister,” Richard advised, “Tonight is the first ball of the Season, and we shall focus on that.” His gaze roamed the room. “There are several eligible matches here tonight. Let’s focus on the possibilities the night holds.”
Emily gave a curt nod and turned her attention back to the room. Another set took the floor; they stood in pairs, waiting for their cue. She watched as they swayed to the music, smiling to herself. Her eyes moved and landed on a trio of men standing across the hall. They were looking in her direction, whispering to themselves, and one of them held a smile on his face.
“It would appear that someone has decided to be bold enough,” her brother said, drawing her gaze to the gentleman approaching them with a warm smile.
She recognised him at once. Viscount James Hartley.
His handsome features hardly would allow one to forget him. She’d seen him a couple of times at social functions. Now, he was walking towards her, his eyes shifting between her and her brother. When he got to them, he offered a courteous bow.
“Lord Clifton, Lady Emily,” the viscount started, his voice smooth, “A delight to see you both this fine evening.”
Richard nodded in response. “Lord Hartley, pleasure to see you as well.”
The viscount’s eyes found Emily’s, and his smile grew. “Lady Emily, I was hoping you could join me on the floor for the next set. Would you do me the honour?”
Smiling, Emily glanced briefly at her brother, her eyes asking for his approval. Richard gave it with a slight nod after taking another look at the viscount. Pleased, Emily dipped into a curtsy, a light blush spreading across her cheeks. “It would be my pleasure, Lord Hartley.”
Lord Hartley extended a hand to her, and she gently placed her hand in his, allowing him to lead her toward the dance floor as the next set was about to start. The music began again, swelling around them.
“You dance quite well, Lady Emily,” Lord Hartley said, his clear blue eyes staring into hers. They twirled across the dance floor, following each other in fluid steps. His right hand rested just below the blades of her shoulders, and Emily tried not to think about how well her right hand fit in his left.
“Thank you, Lord Hartley. So do you.”
They glided across the room, and Emily lost herself in the moment, feeling as though her feet no longer touched the floor.
They eased into a light conversation about their hobbies as they continued to dance. Emily was engulfed in the majestic sound of his voice and the irresistible features of his face. His height easily towered over her, and she found herself imagining what their children would look like.
Caution, Emily, she chided herself. It was too soon to be daydreaming, but she was already imagining what life as the wife of this charming viscount would be like. She didn’t miss the jealous stares of some other debutantes and felt even more like she’d scored herself a great choice.
“I would love to hear you play the pianoforte sometime soon, my lady. I’m sure your talent is impeccable,” Lord Hartley commented.
“Oh, I wouldn’t go as far as saying impeccable. I’d always had a flair for music. My father would often jest about me being born with music notes rolling off my tongue,” she told him.
A rich, deep chuckle bubbled from his throat. “Well now, I can certainly say that I must hear you play. I also enjoy music myself but was never patient enough to learn.”
The music began to fade and eventually came to its end. The orchestra waited until their set left the dance floor and another took over, before playing again.
“Would you like something to drink? Perhaps some lemonade?” Lord Hartley asked.
Emily smiled at his thoughtfulness. “Yes, that would be lovely, thank you.”
Side by side, Lord Hartley led Emily to the refreshment table, where he poured their glasses.
“You know, Lady Emily, forgive my forwardness, but tonight, when I saw you, I knew I couldn’t let this evening pass without a dance. From the moment I set my gaze on you, I was quite bewitched, body and soul, with your charm and beauty,” Lord Hartley confessed, his eyes softening. He averted them for a moment before returning them to her. “I must admit, I have seen you on a few occasions before, often from a distance, and each time, I found myself captivated by your grace. But tonight, being near you, it feels as if the world has fallen away, leaving only us in this moment.”
Emily’s heart swelled with a mixture of joy and surprise. She hadn’t expected him to admit his affection tonight.
“You flatter me, my lord.”
Lord Hartley smiled. “If only this was flattery, Lady Emily, then I’d know that my mind was playing tricks on me. I know we’ve only just met, but I find myself in the most unusual position.”
Emily’s forehead creased slightly. “How so, my lord?”
“These few moments we’ve spent together, you’ve captured my heart in a way I didn’t know possible. I must admit that I shall cherish these moments for the rest of my life. It is my hope that I may have the privilege of sharing more moments with you.”
Words seemed to have died on Emily’s tongue. How could they not? She had been worried about tonight, as had her father been. In the last couple of weeks leading up to the Season’s start, she had been consumed by the prospect of finding true love and an honourable match. But what were the odds that she had gotten lucky with a man like Viscount Hartley? Perhaps she had nothing to worry about. Her heart thudded with joy at the possibility of her happily ever after starting sooner rather than later. She might have masked it well, but inside, the butterflies in her stomach wouldn’t stay still.
“I understand this is sudden,” Lord Hartley continued, looking down as if to compose himself. “And I do not expect you to agree right away. I am aware that this may seem hubris to you. But I would very much like to court you, Lady Emily. That is, of course, if you are interested. Shall I call upon you sometime? Perhaps after we’ve taken some time to think over this.”
Emily’s features softened, and she smiled gracefully. “I would be honoured, Lord Hartley.”
A look of relief washed over Lord Hartley’s face, and he grinned. “Wonderful.”
That evening, filled with so much potential, had Emily in high hopes. Hopes that she had no idea were soon to be crushed.
Merely weeks later, Emily’s joy had been snuffed away.
She had been seated in her family’s drawing room when her father and brother found her.
Sunlight streaked through the windows, offering its glow and warmth to the room, but it wasn’t enough to mask the heaviness that filled the room as soon as her father and brother stepped in. There was a deep sadness in their eyes though she couldn’t fathom its cause. Until her father told her.
“No, father. This must be a mistake,” she groaned, standing to her feet. Fear and grief gripped her at the same time, and disbelief washed over her.
Her father sighed. “I’m afraid it isn’t, my dearest,” he told her, unease resting in his throat. “Lord Hartley unfortunately passed away yesterday.”
“What happened to him? I was expecting him to call on me yesterday.”
Her father exchanged a cautious glance with her brother.
“Tragic riding accident,” her brother replied, his voice cracking slightly.
Emily’s shoulders dropped. She let their words sink in, and the weight of what it meant rested on her.
She had felt something off this morning when she awoke, and now, realizing she had dressed in black, she felt her clothes were fitting for the situation.
Her father’s and brother’s words echoed in her ears, and with each echo, her hopes and dreams of a happy future as Viscountess Hartley shattered.
Slowly, she lowered herself onto the settee, sitting rigidly. Tears fell from her eyes, and soon she was a tearful mess. Her father and brother did their best to console her as she sobbed, but how could she be consoled? Her world as she knew it was disintegrating while her heart ached over her loss.
She and Lord Hartley were to be married in a couple of months, and now, in an unexpected turn of events, she was mourning him.
Life, indeed, didn’t play fair.
***
It was a fair day in London. The sun shone brightly above, and the scent of roses filled the glorious summer air. Emily, however, couldn’t appreciate their beauty.
She stood in the garden of her family’s estate. Lord Timothy Thornhill paced about before her, muttering some things she couldn’t hear. Dread had settled in her stomach the second she saw him and the look of discomfort that covered his face.
“My lord, if there is something that troubles you, you can share it with me,” she told him.
Lord Thornhill glanced at her, a pitiful look in his eyes.
The suspense was snuffing the life out of Emily.
It was the summer after she’d received the tragic news of Lord Hartley’s demise. His passing had broken her heart to pieces, and she struggled for a while. His demise had made her the target of whispered sympathies, and she hated the pitiful looks people gave her.
Months after his passing, she met Lord Timothy Thornhill at a ball. He was from a noble family and had been there for her to support her through her loss. What started out as friendship soon turned into a proposal for courtship.
Emily had doubts about opening her heart again to someone, but with encouragement from friends and family, she agreed to court Lord Thornhill.
“My dear, I do not know how…how to say this,” Lord Thornhill spoke, his voice faltering. He swallowed nervously before going to sit on the closest bench. His hand patted the empty spot next to him, gesturing for Emily to sit next to him.
Reluctantly, she took a seat.
“What troubles you, my lord?”
Lord Thornhill drew out a sigh. He was unable to meet her gaze.
“You…no…my family.”
Emily tensed at his response.
“My family,” he repeated. “It would appear that some news got to them…a-about y-your father.”
“My father?” she questioned, a slight frown appearing on her face.
“It would seem he…he is having some financial troubles, I believe,” Lord Thornhill said.
Emily didn’t respond. She had recently found this out herself but even now failed to understand how that affected anything. Everyone had financial issues from time to time. It was probably just a minor issue that her father was no doubt working to resolve.
“I am certain that this matter shall soon be resolved, my lord. Such occurrences are not uncommon.”
Lord Thornhill shook his head. “You wouldn’t understand, Lady Emily.” He paused, and tension filled the air. “I’m afraid I can no longer continue to see you, Lady Emily.”
Emily’s head turned towards him with such swiftness that it seemed her neck might protest. Her brows arched in astonishment, a look of incredulity gracing her countenance.
“What?” Her voice came out in a whisper.
Lord Thornhill turned to face her, taking her hands in his.
His expression was a mix of nervousness and displeasure.
“Pray forgive me. You must understand the tight position I’m in. My family is putting me under pressure to do what is best for us and I have a duty to do so. They are very troubled by your family’s unfortunate situation financially. I am truly sorry for this outcome, but it is beyond me, my lady. I…I know that…this must be hard…for y-you…as it is for me.” He sighed again. “I earnestly hope that you might find it within your heart to forgive me.”
Emily couldn’t help the familiar pang in her chest. The pain she felt intensified, and tears pricked her eyes as Lord Thornhill stood to his feet and took a slight bow. A dull ache settled in her chest as she watched him stride further away from her, taking her second chance at happiness along with him.
It was a most ironic circumstance. Here she sat, with tears poised to spill and her lips quivering—surrounded by a profusion of blooming flowers. Yet, instead of offering solace, they seemed to taunt her misfortune.
How could she possibly be unlucky twice? Words failed her, and soon the tears took over.
She had undoubtedly been dealt the most unjust of fortunes.
***
Present day…
“Emily!”
The familiar sound of an excited voice broke through Emily’s quiet contemplation. She turned to the direction of the voice and began to drift towards it. Her cousin, Miss Charlotte Clifton, stood in front of another tall mirror, a beaming smile on her face.
“What do you think?” Charlotte asked, twisting one way and then the other so Emily could see the come-out gown the modiste fitted for her. It was a pink gown with intricate flower patterns that Emily admired.
She smiled proudly. “That gown becomes you exceedingly well, Charlotte.”
Charlotte’s eyes grew with excitement. “You think so?”
Emily nodded at her grinning eighteen-year-old cousin. Her debutante Season might not have gone as well as she’d hoped, but she was determined to ensure Charlotte’s debut was everything she had hoped hers would be like.
It was the start of the Season, and her family was thrilled for Charlotte. Her brother had instructed that they secure the best of the best gowns for her as she prepared for her debut in society.
“I think we should get more options for her,” Emily said to the modiste. “Just to see what suits my cousin best.” She gestured to the gown. “This is quite lovely, and I’m sure we can find more options just as good, if not better.”
The modiste nodded. “Certainly. Miss Charlotte possesses an exquisite taste, as do you, Lady Emily. We’ll find her other gowns that are to both your liking.”
“Thank you,” Emily responded with a smile.
“Oh, I cannot thank you enough for this, Emily,” Charlotte said, throwing her arms around her cousin. A startled laugh left Emily’s throat, and she embraced her back. “You’ve been so helpful to me and I’m eternally grateful to you for it. I’ve been beside myself, feeling like I must have swallowed a ball of nerves. Having you here certainly calms me down.”
“You have absolutely nothing to thank me for, Charlotte. You’re family. I’d do anything for you,” Emily assured her. “Plus, who doesn’t fancy a trip to the modiste?”
Charlotte laughed.
“I just hope I would remember all the steps from the dance lessons I took. I wouldn’t want to step on anyone’s foot or make a fool of myself,” she expressed, nervousness creeping into her voice.
“You will be alright, my dear Charlotte,” Emily noted. “I have no doubt that you’ll captivate everyone in the room. Your debut will be everything you’ve dreamed of. You will be perfect.”
Charlotte gave her a grateful smile, hope filling her eyes.
They progressed on with sampling a few more gowns for Charlotte, varying their choices based on what accentuated or complemented her features. A few people came into the shop while they went on, but it wasn’t until Lady Agatha Worthington and her daughter, Celia, walked in with a small group of ladies that the air shifted.
Emily groaned inwardly at the sight of them. She fought the urge to groan aloud when mother and daughter started in her direction.
“Lady Emily, a delight to see you this fine afternoon,” Lady Worthington said, her tone dripping with sarcasm.
Emily plastered a fake smile onto her face. “Lady Worthington, a pleasure it is.” She gestured a hand toward Charlotte. “May I present my cousin, Miss Charlotte Clifton.”
Charlotte curtsied.
Lady Worthington nodded, raking her eyes over Charlotte’s figure. Emily grimaced. No doubt Lady Worthington was looking for something to address that was out of her scope of business.
“How lovely to see you again, Miss Clifton,” Lady Worthington remarked. “Allow me to introduce my daughter, Lady Celia Worthington.”
Celia curtsied and Emily gave a nod. She was over the pleasantries and now wished both ladies would go about their own way before they found something to turn into gossip.
Lady Agatha was a high society matron with an eye for mischief, an ear for scandal, and a tongue for rumour. She was a veritable fountain of knowledge regarding the comings and goings of the ton, possessing an intimate acquaintance with the eligible ladies of the highest social standing. A simple rumour from Agatha would shake the courts. Her daughter, Celia, was her mother’s eyes and ears at social events, always fishing for and gathering gossip to return to her mother with.
They were one pair that Emily always avoided.
But if wishes were horses…
“I find it surprising to see you here, Lady Emily,” Lady Agatha declared with a snigger. “I mean, you couldn’t possibly have the intent to attend this Season’s marriage market, do you? Surely, you recognise by now how unlucky you are with prospects.”
Her words cut through like a knife coated with salt, stinging Emily’s internal wounds that were yet to fully heal. Her cheeks flushed with embarrassment, and she instinctively lowered her gaze.
“But certainly, do not lose hope. Although I doubt you would, seeing how ambitious you are,” Lady Agatha added, scoffing. “I’m sure there is a match out there for you. Hopefully, the modiste can produce a gown for you that would capture his attention.”
Emily’s eyes met hers.
“Perhaps this would be your lucky Season. The seventh time must be your charm.”
Emily pursed his lips together, and she wished so badly that she could reply to Lady Agatha with the truth of what she wanted to say.
Unclenching her jaw, she cleared her throat. “Charlotte would be debuting this Season. I am here to offer any assistance I can to her.”
Lady Agatha cackled, her eyes running over Charlotte once again. “Ah, right. That does seem right then. Well then, let me not get in your way. Take care, and may your day be most agreeable.”
Emily nodded respectfully. “As I hope yours is too.”
Chapter Two
A satisfied smile graced Emily’s lips as the melody flowed from her fingertips.
She closed her eyes, warmth radiating through her as she gracefully moved her fingers across the keys of pianoforte.
A stark contrast to the cold, judgmental world of high society and the ton was the local orphanage she supported.
Teaching the children here how to play the pianoforte—an instrument she was pretty skilled in—and offering her organizational skills where needed had become her solace. It gave her a sense of purpose other than finding a worthy match and being wed.
Six years after her debut and the unfortunate circumstances that followed, she withdrew to her family’s country estate, spending time by herself or at the orphanage.
The sound of the children’s laughter and voices, accompanied by the soft notes she played, were seemingly enough consolation for the heartaches she felt due to the status society held her to.
“Remember, Josephine, you don’t have to force anything. Let the music flow through and from you,” she told the young girl seated next to her. A gentle smile curled her lips. “You have to feel to be able to play well.”
Some of the children surrounded them, watching with a mix of eagerness, curiosity and concentration.
Josephine nodded, her eyes keen on her instructor’s fingers as the music slowly faded out.
“Your turn,” Emily urged, moving slightly so Josephine could play.
The young girl positioned herself to try. Closing her eyes, she brought her fingers to the keys and began playing. Seconds later, she opened her eyes, and a disbelieving smile crossed her face. She glanced at Emily, who was beaming with pride.
“Like this, Lady Emily?” she asked.
Emily placed a hand on her back. “You’re doing great, Josephine. Exactly like that. You possess a natural talent.” She listened until Josephine’s number was done, relishing the melodious notes that floated in the air. Some of the other children swayed their heads to the tune. While others watched with wide eyes.
Everyone knew how Josephine had struggled for a while with her lessons, and to some, it was incredible how well she had eventually progressed. Emily always knew she would be great at it. The girl had immense potential.
When Josephine hit the last note, a loud cheer erupted from the children. A roar of applause followed, and Emily joined in. Gratitude flashed in Josephine’s eyes, and she grinned toothily, excitement bubbling within her.
“Well done, Josephine,” Emily told her. The young girl wrapped her arms around Emily’s waist, hugging her tightly.
“Thank you, Lady Emily,” she squealed.
“You’re most welcome, my darling. You see, music is as much about feeling as it is about technique. Continue to trust yourself and never shy away from your feelings. You’ll find the beauty in every note.”
The other children listened intently—as did Josephine—a look of admiration in their eyes.
A sense of fulfilment washed over her, and contentment swelled inside her. Every single time she came here, she was reminded that there were people—regardless of status—who valued her for who she was and not her ability—or inability-to be married. That was enough for her, and it always would be. Here, she was away from the pressures of society and the ton’s judgment. Here, she was free to just be herself.
One by one, she patiently taught each child who showed interest in the pianoforte, and they took turns playing.
“Lady Clifton, please can we play the duet you taught us last week?” One of the children, a boy named Peter, asked with enthusiasm. “I’ve been practising every day.”
Emily chuckled heartily. “Of course, Peter. I don’t see why not. Come show me what you’ve been practising.”
***
Marcus Holbrooke grimaced. He stood watching his reflection as his valet, Thompson, tucked his shirt in. He cast one glance at the window, noting the approaching dusk.
Left to him, he would instead be tucked away in his study, attending to matters that were surely of greater importance to him than the dinner party he was about to attend.
He groaned internally.
Thompson cast him a curious look, noticing his master’s tension.
“Your Grace, has something occurred to trouble you? You appear distressed,” he remarked in a polite tone. “Is something not to your liking?”
Marcus finally let out a groan, feeling the need to share his plight with someone. “I find this situation most unsatisfactory.”
Thompson’s eyebrows drew in confusion. It took him a moment to understand what his master was referring to.
“Ah, you must mean the dinner party you are to attend, I suppose.”
A sigh left Marcus. “And the upcoming Season,” he added tensely. “I am not quite ready to offer myself to the barrage of matchmaking mamas and the young ladies of the ton. I’d much rather be doing something else.”
Thompson held back a chuckle, but one edge of his mouth tugged upward a little.
“I presume Your Grace is not looking forward to this year’s Season.”
“I am not.”
“Permit me to say, Your Grace, I have a good feeling about this Season particularly. The ton’s eyes would be focused on you, but you have always been able to command any room you walk into with ease. I’m confident that you’ll make a great impression at the dinner party.”
The duke smiled wryly at his valet, no doubt appreciating the confidence boost but nonetheless unsure about the events the Season would unfold.
He tilted his head up as Thompson’s hands carefully repositioned his cravat. Involuntarily, his mind travelled to the sequence of events that led him to this point.
If everything had gone ideally five years ago, he would have been attending any social event he had this Season with his wife.
Marcus winced as the memories of his life five years ago flooded his mind.
He had been the blithe second son of his father, the late duke, with his major passions surrounding agriculture and estate management. He couldn’t have cared less about high society and the ton.
But as life would have it, he was thrust into unexpected circumstances and responsibilities following the death of his older brother—who inherited the dukedom after his father’s passing—only to pass on due to a fever. That was two years ago, and three years prior to that, he had nursed a broken heart and painful loss caused by the betrayal of his former fiancée and now sister-in-law.
Lady Selina Holbrooke would have earned his family name by marrying him. They had been courting before she abruptly ended their courtship, transferring her affection to his older brother, Henry, not long after she met him. She would have gotten their last name from marrying Marcus, but instead, she wanted to secure her way to being Duchess by marrying the heir to the Dukedom.
No matter how much Marcus had tried to shake off the effect of her betrayal on him, even till now, he struggled at the thought of it.
How unfortunate it must have been for her when her husband died two years ago after only three years of marriage. And with no child to their name. Marcus had sometimes wished she’d been around to see him become the duke—not because he wished death for his brother, but to show her how unpredictable life was.
Unfortunately for him, too, Marcus hadn’t had the chance to sit down fully before the increasing pressures of his new role were poured down on him. From the pressure to marry and produce an heir soon to the estate and tenants that he was responsible for and to his family’s business, which he gave himself targets for, it was like a never-ending cycle. His mother, bless her heart, while understanding the sting of Selina’s betrayal, still found ways to convince him of the importance of settling down and having children.
“You have to open your heart to someone again, Marcus,” she’d often say. “I want you to be happy.”
“I am happy, Mother,” was his often counter.
But he knew she could read him like an open book—better than most. She knew how deep his scars ran and how guarded and distrustful the betrayal made him, keeping any romantic entanglements at bay with the high walls that surrounded his heart.
Sighing, Marcus took one final look at the fitting of his clothes.
“Thank you, Thompson. I always appreciate your attention to detail,” he said.
The valet took a slight bow. “Your Grace’s words are far too kind. It is always a pleasure.”
Without wasting any moment longer, Marcus strolled out of his room, Thompson in tow, as he made his way down the hallway. Approaching the foot of the stairs, his mother came into view.
The Dowager Duchess of Milwood, Judith Holbrooke, stood regal with a bright smile. She watched her son descend the stairs with pride in her eyes.
“Mother.”
“Your Grace.” Thompson bowed in respect.
“Thompson, thank you for always having His Grace ready in time,” Judith said. Turning to her son, she added, “You look quite dashing tonight, Marcus. For someone who doesn’t like these functions, you sure do manage to keep the ladies of the ton in awe of your presence despite how rarely you attend these events.”
“If it were up to me, I’d rather their awe was directed elsewhere and that I stay in the comfort of my study worrying only about matters that are important to me. Not the ton or its gossip.”
Judith’s smile widened. Her son was ever so stubborn whenever it came to these events. “Well, you don’t have to sulk so much about it. It’s one dinner and declining the invitation was not an option.”
“It is the company of the dinner party’s hostess that I do not look forward to, mother,” Marcus retorted.
Judith exhaled a breath. “When Lady Agatha Worthington invites you to dinner, you cannot refuse. Otherwise, she’d conjure up some gossip about your reason that would be all but close to the truth. Our family has enough on its hands, and we do not need to add malicious gossip to that. So, brace up, because we are sitting through this dinner even if there were pins in our seats.”
Marcus wanted to argue, but he knew she was right.
If there were excuses, Lady Agatha didn’t care. Nor did the gossip and rumour mill she ran with consistency and dedication.
***
Meanwhile, across town, Emily was seated for dinner with Charlotte and her older brother, Richard. Despite the delicious array of food options to choose from—which Charlotte was eager about—the wheels in Richard’s head didn’t stop churning.
Emily observed him from where she sat, and a twinge of guilt crept into her. Her brother had spent the last two years since their father’s unfortunate passing, working hard to rebuild their family’s financial status. Their father had fallen ill and passed due to a fever that plagued the town two years ago, leaving Richard to assume the role of the Earl of Colenshire. Emily could almost see the proverbial dent in his shoulders from carrying the weight of the family’s responsibilities left by their father. In two years, they were only just finally finding their footing, thanks to Richard’s cut-throat business approach and wise business investments and decisions.
Only in his early thirties, he was already sporting subtle yet visible signs of the stress and pressure he had endured. Emily felt guilty that she hadn’t contributed more to the restoration of their family’s fortune. Although she knew Richard would never have allowed her to bother herself.
Words couldn’t describe the high esteem she held her brother in. His unwavering efforts for their family and support towards Charlotte and her would forever have her grateful to him.
“We received some invitations for a couple of balls coming up later in the Season,” Richard stated, his voice assertive. He turned to Charlotte. “I hoped you found the gowns the modiste made for you to your liking, Charlotte.” His tone had softened.
Charlotte’s eyes lit up, her enthusiasm about the Season growing more palpable. She nodded vigorously. “They were most becoming, Richard. The modiste is truly talented and I found myself to be greatly pleased with the fitting and designs. Emily’s presence and assistance was invaluable. I am profoundly grateful to both of you.” Her gaze shifted between both her cousins.
“You’re most welcome, Charlotte,” Emily said, placing a hand over hers.
After returning from the orphanage, thoughts about The Worthington’s scornful remarks now a forgotten memory, she had gone to help Charlotte with her preparations. Everything had to be perfect, and she was excited for the opportunities she was sure would come her beautiful cousin’s way.
A sudden pang of sadness hit her in the chest, and Emily slowly retracted her hand. She turned to her food, momentarily drowning out the light conversation that flowed between Richard and Charlotte. Try as she may, she couldn’t wholly renounce the sadness she felt for her own lost opportunities.
Emily gave a slight shake of her head, returning to the conversation. She wouldn’t focus on these feelings. It was of no use. She would instead focus on being supportive of Charlotte and her brother in any capacity they needed her.
“I would be pleased to host the first ball of the Season this year,” Richard announced, lifting his cup to sip from it. His eyes flickered between his sister at the other end of the table and his cousin sitting next to her. He’d always felt that they were too far away from him at mealtimes but had yet to speak on it. “After everything we’ve been through in the past years, I think this would be great for us. We’ve endured so much and have come out on the other side of it. We deserve to celebrate.”
Emily smiled, pleased. “That’s wonderful to hear, Richard. I would gladly take on any aspects of the preparation I can help with. I already feel as though I am not doing enough.” She cast her gaze at her plate.
“Nonsense!” Richard chided in a light tone. “You are doing more than enough, dearest sister. Your support, even in ways you may not perceive, is of great significance to me. The endeavours I have undertaken are not solely for the family’s reputation but for the benefit of us all. Your presence here, your unwavering dedication to Charlotte and the orphanage, is indeed invaluable. You contribute in your own distinguished manner. Thus, I extend my heartfelt gratitude.” He bestowed upon her a warm smile.
“Richard is right, Emily. You shouldn’t underestimate your value and importance to us. To this family.”
Emily felt her heart leap with gratitude. “Thank you. Both of you.”
His smile spread, and he raised his glass. “Shall we make a toast then?”
“What should we toast to?” Charlotte inquired.
“To us. To our family; for overcoming our challenges together and supporting each other. To the strength we find in each other.”
Emily and Charlotte raised their glasses in the air.
“To us!” they chanted in unison.
Dinner progressed smoothly, the room filled with light chatter, laughter, and the aroma of great food.
“I would be dishonest if I said that I hold no nervousness about this Season,” Charlotte stated, “But somehow, I am just as excited. I hear there are so many new people to meet, eligible bachelors.”
“Mmm. I hear that the marriage mart has some solid prospects this year,” Richard added.
“And you will find an honourable match, Charlotte,” Emily said with confidence.
“She certainly will,” Richard chimed. “You must know how important it is that you choose someone who can offer you security and stability. So, you can have a future for yourself. You must build a partnership on mutual respect and understanding. Love is important, but I’m afraid it isn’t all there is to a good marriage.”
“Richard is right, Charlotte,” Emily put in. “You have to choose someone who respects you and your values and doesn’t think of you as less than himself. Someone who sees you for who you are. Love and practicality in the marriage mart hold a fragile balance.” Her words carried the surety of someone speaking from experience.
“Do you think that makes it more difficult to find a suitable match?” Charlotte asked, curious but not deterred.
Emily shrugged one shoulder slightly and took a sip from her glass.
“For some,” she replied sincerely. “But, I am certain, that would not pertain to your situation.”
She was determined not to let Charlotte—despite her somewhat naivety—suffer any form of ill fate in her debut Season. If she could do something to prevent it, then she would without a shadow of a doubt.
***
Elsewhere, in the luxurious dining room of Lady Agatha Worthington’s townhouse, Marcus was thinking up excuses to give the enthusiastic debutantes and their mamas as to why he suddenly had to leave. Of course, he had to figure out a way to do this without seeming rude.
From the moment he and his mother walked in, he had been hemmed in with small talk and constant boastful conversations by either mamas or their daughters about their achievements and pursuits, all to make a good impression.
He cast a glance past them and caught his mother’s amused smile on him. Whilst she might have found his predicament amusing, he couldn’t breathe, especially because of Lady Agatha and her daughter.
The Worthington grand hall was filled with the hum of conversation, light laughter, and the clinking of glasses. Everything seemed to be tugging on his nerves.
“You know, Your Grace, Celia has excelled in all her studies and has even taken up some impressive accomplishments in the arts,” Lady Worthington said proudly. “I’m sure you’ll find her most agreeable company, Your Grace.”
Marcus forced a smile. He was growing increasingly tired and uncomfortable being there.
“I’m certain she is. It’s always good to see young people dedicated to their studies and pursuits.”
Oh, what I would give now to bask in the solitude of my study, he thought.
Lady Agatha continued to extol Celia’s virtues while Marcus, half listening, surveyed the room. It was just as he expected. There was nothing peculiar or outstanding. It was just the usual small talk and societal scrutiny. It always bored him out of his mind.
“And what are your thoughts on the upcoming Season, Your Grace?” Celia asked, bringing his attention back to their circle. “Do you have any advice for us debutantes?”
Marcus thought for a moment. “My advice would be to be genuine and true to yourselves. The Season can be overwhelming, but staying true will serve you well. Especially in finding the right match.”
Lady Agatha and the other mamas nodded with approval. There was obviously an underlying agenda in their interest, but it was in his best interest that he pretended not to notice it.
“Such wise words, Your Grace,” Lady Agatha enunciated. “We appreciate your insights. Perhaps you might join us for a dance later in the evening?”
“Thank you, Lady Agatha,” Marcus said. “I shall certainly consider it.” But he wished he didn’t have to consider it.
Lady Agatha turned to her daughter. “I’m sure you’ll enjoy getting to know the Duke, Celia. He’s a man of great distinction.” She smiled ostentatiously.
Celia grinned at Marcus. “I’m looking forward to it.”
“Likewise,” Marcus told her, but he didn’t really mean it.
With the stifling atmosphere, Marcus struggled to maintain his composure amidst the overwhelming social chatter.
Suddenly, the door opened, and a familiar figure walked in, one that caused Marcus’s heart to race.
“Selina,” he uttered, his voice low so as not to draw attention to himself. She was as agreeable to behold as he remembered. Her entrance evoked a ripple of whispers and surprised looks throughout the room.
When last had he seen her? It must have been at Henry’s funeral. Indeed. It had to be before he was pushed into his brother’s role, and he had become preoccupied ever since.
Selina’s gaze met his, and although he meant to look away, it was too late now. She was making a beeline towards him.
Memories long buried surfaced, and so did her betrayal. The ache returned, and now Marcus really wished to be anywhere but here. He had convinced himself in the past that he was over her, and there was nothing but goodwill to show towards her and his brother.
“Excuse me,” Marcus said to his current company as he moved forward to greet Selina.
“Marcus!” Selina called out to him in a fond manner like she usually did before she chose title over him. “It’s so good to see you.”
Marcus wished he could say the same. She offered him her hand, and he briefly brought the back of it to his lips. “Lady Holbrooke.” He acknowledged her without a hint of unnecessary familiarity in his tone.
Selina beamed, looking up at him through her lashes. His height overshadowed her, but she didn’t mind. She had always thought it was one of his best features. “How wonderful to see you again,” she chirped.
Marcus didn’t return her eagerness. “I didn’t expect to see you here.” If he had known she would be here, even with his mother’s plea, he wouldn’t grace this occasion.
“I’ve just returned from Bath, where I was staying with my parents. It’s been such a long time since we’ve had the pleasure of conversing. I’ve missed the company of old friends.”
Marcus’s lips tightened. “I see. I trust you found Bath to be a pleasant retreat.”
Selina chuckled. “It was quite lovely, thank you. But I must admit, it’s a pleasure to be back in London. And even more so to see you, Marcus.”
“I trust your time away was also introspective, as it was restful,” Marcus challenged. He was unsure of why he did it, but seeing her smile falter, he felt a bit pleased.
Selina’s faltering smile only lasted for a few seconds before she quickly recovered. She leaned in slightly. “It was, Marcus,” she asserted, “I hope we can let the past go and find some common ground now in the present.” Her gaze lowered to the ground for a moment. “After all, we did share many happy moments before…everything changed.” She looked up at him with a renewed excitement. “Pray tell, how have you been?”
Marcus wasn’t sure he wanted to be having this conversation, especially not with her. If he hadn’t felt comfortable earlier, he definitely felt worse now.
“It’s been a long time, Selina, and I’ve had quite the evening,” he breathed, not in the mood to indulge her. “I trust that you are faring well now, seeing that you’ve settled back into London society.”
Selina wore a resigned expression, frustrated by his consistent deflection. “I am well, and I truly regret how things ended. I hope we can at least find a way to be cordial, if not friendly.” She inched closer, and Marcus tensed. “The years have been good to you, I can see.”
Marcus took a step back, catching the slight frown that formed between Selina’s brows. “I appreciate your sentiments.”
“We never spoke after Henry’s death…”
There was a tightness in Marcus’s chest at the mention of Henry’s death. Thankfully, before he could express his disinterest in speaking about his brother with her, the butler announced that dinner was ready, interrupting Selina. She pursed her lips as Marcus politely excused himself, joining the other guests to move towards the dining table.
Marcus seized the opportunity to avoid further interaction with anyone and quickly found his mother, escorting her to the table. To his dismay, he found himself seated next to Celia, and directly across from him sat Selina. Selina fixed her gaze on him, and Marcus couldn’t help but wish to be elsewhere.
“Well, hasn’t this evening taken an unusual turn,” his mother leaned in to say, her eyes narrowing at Selina, who only acknowledged her with a graceful smile.
“I’m so excited about this evening, Your Grace,” Celia enthused. “My mother has such a flair for hosting. What do you think of the arrangement?”
Marcus forced a smile for the umpteenth time. “It is quite impressive, Lady Celia. Your mother does have a talent for creating a beautiful setting.”
The first course was served, and Marcus, albeit trapped, tried to focus on his meal. He didn’t need to raise his head to look in Selina’s direction to know she had her gaze set on him. He could feel her eyes on him.
“I’ve heard so much about the latest fashions from Paris.” Celia attempted to make conversation. She knew her mother would hound her if she didn’t catch enough of the duke’s attention tonight. “Have you seen any of the new designs, Your Grace?”
“No,” Marcus replied dryly. He turned his attention to the conversation his mother was having with Lady Elaine, hoping theirs could make Celia reduce her persistent attempts. It was unfortunate enough that he was awfully conscious of Selina’s occasional glances that carried more meaning than just being casual; he didn’t need the younger Lady Worthington rambling on.
“Bath was such a refreshing change,” he heard Selina say.
Out of his peripheral, Marcus noted her talking to an old matron seated beside her.
“The society there was rather quite genteel,” Selina went on, “and the healing waters were as restorative as ever. It was just what I needed after such a turbulent time.”
“I can imagine,” the old matron chimed in. “Have you been, Your Grace?”
Marcus shifted uncomfortably. He returned his gaze to Selina and then to the matron whose name he’d forgotten at that moment. “I’ve heard the waters in Bath are quite renowned for their healing abilities. It seems it was a beneficial time for Lady Holbrooke.”
“Yes, I’ve heard that too myself!” Celia joined. “It’s such a shame that I haven’t had the chance to visit. Perhaps, next year.”
He sent her a false grin and turned to briefly meet Selina’s gaze, which held lots of unspoken messages.
“Returning to London has been a mixed blessing of sorts,” Selina admitted. “While it’s good to be back, the memories of Bath and the peace it brought are difficult to leave behind.”
The conversation around the table continued, but Marcus’s mind drifted elsewhere as he tried to focus on the food and the polite exchanges around him. He glanced at the dessert course being served and mentally counted down the minutes until he could excuse himself.
Celia leaned in with a coy smile. “I’ve been looking forward to the pudding all evening. Have you had it before, Your Grace?”
“I have. Several times actually. A delight each time.”
A desperate sigh clogged his throat, and he said a silent prayer with the hopes that he’d be able to leave sooner than later.
Chapter Three
Emily couldn’t recall the last time she saw their townhouse so busy. The persistent hum of activity echoed through every corridor in the Clifton townhouse. Servants rushed in and out of rooms, attending to one task or the other. The ballroom was festooned with a variety of fresh flowers, embellishing every mantelpiece and a few side stools.
The butler was stationed by the large double doors, scanning the room and observing the preparations being done with a scrutinizing gaze. A small orchestra was setting up in one corner, chatting amongst themselves as they tuned their instruments. The sound was barely audible with the activity going on around. There were at least a hundred candles in the room, and one could already imagine how the ballroom would look when they were all lit.
A floor above the ballroom, in Charlotte’s bedchamber, her lady’s maid was lacing her stays.
Tonight was Charlotte’s come-out ball and also the first ball of the Season. Richard had instructed that everything be perfect for the high-society guests that would be in attendance.
A warm smile etched on Charlotte’s face as she stared at her reflection in the mirror. Emily’s face mirrored hers. The pink gown she wore was perfect for her, its flower designs following an elegant pattern.
“Mary, might I have my gloves laid out for me?” Charlotte said to her lady’s maid, her voice smooth. “Oh—and do pass the silk ribbons for my hair.”
“Of course, my lady. As soon as I’m finished with your dress,” Mary replied, curtseying slightly.
Emily, seated on a comfortable chair, observed as Mary helped her cousin get ready for tonight’s memorable occasion. Involuntarily, as she watched, her mind wandered back to six years ago, to a time when, just hours before her come-out ball, she was getting dressed. She could never forget the hope that grew inside her with each moment that passed. She had imagined all the dances she’d have with the fine gentlemen who asked her and had hounded her lady’s maid—bless her patient heart—with endless questions so she didn’t miss anything.
Her heart leapt every time she thought of her future and the love she and her husband would share. They’d have a townhouse and a house in the country to escape all the pressures of being in high society from time to time. She had dreamed of having kids, a home filled with laughter and stories to tell anyone who’d care to listen about how lucky she was.
“What do you think, Emily?”
Charlotte’s voice pulled her out of her reverie. Her focus returned to her cousin, who was now fully dressed. An excited squeal drew out of Charlotte, and she twirled around, showing off her finished ensemble.
Tears of mixed emotion threatened to fall from Emily’s eyes, but she fought them back. Her cousin was truly beautiful—without a doubt. She took pride in knowing Charlotte would do great on the marriage mart this Season. But despite the pride she felt, a dull ache throbbed in her heart. She wondered if she’d ever get a chance at love again or if she was really going to die a spinster, having lost the opportunities she had and now being stigmatized as ‘unlucky’.
A gentle smile spread across her lips.
“You look most charming, my dear,” she said. Rising to her feet, she walked over to where Charlotte stood with a beaming smile. Cupping one side of her face, she added, “Your beauty outshines us all tonight.”
“Thank you, Emily. Your words are most gracious and well appreciated,” Charlotte said, squeezing her hand. Words couldn’t express how grateful she was. Matter of fact, words couldn’t express how much she was looking forward to tonight’s festivities and possibilities.
Heaving a sigh, Emily took one more good look at her cousin. She resolved within her not to let her own disappointments in life affect her capacity to be a support for Charlotte. It was her night, and everything was going to be perfect.
“The ball starts in a few hours. Would you like to read something before then? Or perhaps some tea to calm any nerves?” Emily asked.
“Tea sounds great,” Charlotte replied. “Otherwise, I’m afraid my nerves would get the better of me.”
“Tea it is then.” Emily nodded curtly. She cast a look at Mary, who had been standing a few feet away, not needing to speak for her to get the message of what was required.
“I shall have some tea made for you, my lady,” Mary uttered, her gaze lowering as she curtsied, before excusing herself.
“You’ll be great tonight, my dear,” Emily said to Charlotte when they were alone. She had noticed how nervous she seemed and wanted to help in any way she could.
Not too long later, after going to get ready herself, Emily finally made her way down to the ballroom. The splendour and grandness of it left her in awe. The workers had done a phenomenal job indeed.
The spacious ballroom glowed under the dim light of the candles standing on tall candelabras. Imposing windows draped in plush, velvet curtains surrounded the room. The curtains were held back to allow guests behold the night sky and moonlit gardens. The walls, adorned with exquisite plasterwork and delicate gilded accents, complemented the high ceiling painted with swirling clouds. Ornate chandeliers hung from the vaulted ceiling, casting a warm glow over the polished marble floors. Emily could almost see her reflection in it.
“Oh my!” she gushed, reaching the end of the stairs where Richard stood with his hand out to her and a proud smile etched on his face.
“Can you believe it, Richard? Look at this place!”
“The staff have done a fine job in preparing for this ball,” Richard said.
“Indeed, they have.”
She reached the end of the stairs and took Richard’s hand, muttering a ‘thank you’.
“You look exquisite tonight, my lady,” he told her, his smile reaching his eyes.
Emily curtsied. “Thank you, my lord. You look quite handsome tonight, yourself.”
Richard bowed slightly. “Thank you.” Gesturing in the direction of the large doors, he added, “The guests are arriving now. The ball is about to begin. Shall we?”
“We shall.” Emily smiled.
They made their way towards the entrance, and the footmen standing on both sides pulled back the doors open for them.
Here we go, Emily thought, plastering a polite smile on her face.
Soon, the guests began to arrive, in singles, pairs and groups, each one wearing an elaborate outfit for tonight. The air was thick with excitement, and the ballroom started to fill gradually.
Emily stood beside her brother, Richard, as they received their esteemed guests of London society. The sound of the carriages pulling up to the house was constant at some point.
“Lord Wesley. Lady Wesley.” Richard bowed at the Viscount and his wife while Emily curtsied.
Viscount Wesley, a man in his sixties who looked anything but, was a bosom friend of the late Earl of Colenshire. Richard had kept the connection and relationship even after his father passed.
“Lord Clifton,” Lord Wesley began with a toothy smile. “Pleasure to see you this fine evening.”
“Likewise, my lord.”
“Lady Emily, you look very elegant tonight,” Lord Wesley said, offering Emily a wider smile.
Emily smiled politely. “Thank you, Lord Wesley. We do hope you have a wonderful time tonight. “
“Oh, I have no doubt that I will,” Lord Wesley replied, taking a bow before leading his wife away.
The polite smile on Emily’s and Richard’s faces remained as they continued to welcome the other guests, engaging in small talk about the weather and the social Season.
Soon, the ballroom swarmed with guests—ladies in jewel-adorned gowns of silk and satin, their fabrics rustling against the floors, and gentlemen in their artfully tailored coats moved about exchanging pleasantries. Gentle laughter and the soft murmur of conversation entwined with the music played by the orchestra. The air grew thicker with the fresh scents of blooms and delicate fragrances the guests wore. Elegance emanated from every corner.
The music calmed Emily’s nerves, but still, she couldn’t help but feel the judgmental looks and sniggers from a few ladies of the ton on her.
Even as the ball fully commenced, she and Richard took a turn about the room; the weight of the ton’s scrutiny and criticism rested on her. She avoided their gazes, only stopping to greet some.
“I wonder how she must feel,” one of the ladies, Lady Bennett, whispered to the trio of ladies standing beside her. Ladies Bennett and Worthington and their daughters were the bane of Emily’s existence.
Lady Worthington sniggered. “She’s clearly ambitious. I mean, with her unlucky streak, you’d think she’d give up and accept her fate as a spinster. Except if some widowed gentleman with greying hair and wrinkles running across his face decides to pity her and put her out of her misery.”
“Even that would be a miracle, would it not?” Miss Bennett muttered, scoffing.
“Oh, the poor thing,” Lady Bennett added, her tone drenched in pity. “Agatha, we must do our best to ensure that our daughters never suffer such fate.”
“My dear Celia shall never suffer such fate,” Lady Agatha boasted.
“Lord Clifton.” Lady Bennett acknowledged the Earl with such charm that one might not have ever thought she and Lady Agatha were just talking about his sister.
Richard was no simpleton. He understood that these matronly figures spoke of Emily in hushed tones to their daughters and to anyone willing to lend an ear, depicting her as a cautionary tale. The society matrons, like most others in high society, spoke of her in her absence—and sometimes, presence—with disdain, their looks a poignant mix of pity and curiosity.
Such repulsive behaviour, Richard thought.
“Lady Bennett. Lady Worthington.” Richard bowed his head a slight, not even bothering to offer a polite smile. He inched closer to Emily, who silently curtsied next to him.
“It is such a splendid evening, is it not? We are most grateful for the invitation for tonight, my lord,” Lady Bennett said.
“Thank you for honouring our invitation. We are…privileged…that you could join us tonight,” Richard replied.
“I presume this grand event means we shall see more of you this Season,” Lady Worthington put in, smiling tightly.
“Of course. I look forward to this year’s Season. After all, Emily and I here, have Charlotte who would be debuting this Season.” Richard smiled proudly.
“Ah, yes. The young Miss Clifton,” Lady Agatha enunciated. “A true delight to behold. I’m sure you have high hopes that she’d be lucky to find a suitable match in her first Season out. Unlike many others who aren’t as lucky.” She cast a brief glance at Emily, who hadn’t spoken a word yet.
Richard’s jaw ticked and he bit back the first words that came to his mind, opting for a more polite and respectful response.
“I have every confidence that all shall be well for Charlotte. I intend to make sure of it.”
“Wonderful,” Lady Agatha replied.
“She must be thrilled to have you…and Lady Emily, I’m sure,” Lady Bennett said. She ran a quick look over the Earl’s appearance, holding back the smile that tugged on her lips.
Lord Clifton may have been in his early thirties, and while there were signs of ageing present, it did nothing to dampen his distinguished looks. More than a foot taller than her, with a strong jawline and warm brown eyes, which she was certain her daughter would appreciate, Lord Clifton was indeed one of the finest men of high society. Rumours had circulated time and again about the suspected reasons why he wasn’t married yet, but Lady Bennett—a devoted rumour monger—knew better than to rely on rumours.
“Say, Lord Clifton, you must join us at our country home for dinner sometime. We would be thrilled to spend the evening with you, and my husband would be delighted by your presence,” Lady Bennett proposed.
“I appreciate the invitation, Lady Bennett. Perhaps I would join you sometime when it is convenient for both of us.” He took another small bow. “If you’ll excuse us.”
It was only when they’d walked away that Emily released a breath that she hadn’t realised she’d been holding. All the while Ladies Bennett and Worthington had been addressing her brother, she had avoided their gazes, not wanting to see their judgment in their eyes. It would have been scandalous to throw a ball and not invite them, but a large part of Emily couldn’t care less if she tried.
Their presence alone made her distressed from a distance, and much more when she was in close proximity with them.
She hadn’t missed the advances Lady Bennett had made towards Richard, no doubt with an end-goal to matchmake him with her daughter.
Emily had nearly scoffed at her dinner invitation. Of course, she would invite him for dinner now. Where was her invitation when the earldom’s finances had experienced a nosedive years prior? She and her brother were hardly seen in functions like these because they had too many problems on their hands to be bothered by the ton’s parties.
“Smile, Emily,” Richard leaned in to say, relieving Emily of her unnerving thoughts. He took her hand in his and gave her a gentle squeeze. “Don’t let those mothers and their unbridled tongues bother you. Their words carry as much weight as you allow it. You may rely on my support, Emily,” he reassured her as they reached the refreshments table.
As his words comfortingly took root in her heart, warmth unfolded in her chest. A soft smile of gratitude lifted the corners of her mouth slightly. The sincerity in Richard’s eyes expressed the trust they shared in each other. Her worries may have only merely taken the latter seat in her mind for the time being, but she chose not to think about them.
“Thank you, Richard.”
He gave her a lopsided grin.
“Now, I believe I spotted Lord Wilbury and his wife somewhere in this room. Shall we find them?” He held a glass of lemonade to her, and she accepted it gracefully.
They continued to mingle and interact with the guests, as good hosts should, but soon, Emily’s worries had taken root again. A number of eyes watched her, and some whispered while gazing upon her. She had never felt more like a doll on display.
They probably wondered what good she was when the one value she had as a woman had yet to be given.
Focus, Emily, she internalized.
One would need to develop tougher will to be able to worry less about society matters such as how marriageable one was. Emily was in dire need of tougher will, and she could all but hope that the stigmatization she had experienced in that past six years would not affect Charlotte’s prospects on the mart.
Meanwhile, across the room, at the ballroom’s entrance, Marcus and his mother, Lady Holbrooke, stood. The Cliftons’ butler announced their presence, drawing the eyes of everyone to them.
“His Grace, The Duke of Milwood, and Her Grace, The Dowager Duchess of Milwood.”
For a moment, the room went into a hush, and then gradually, as Marcus and his mother proceeded into the ballroom, the murmurs began.
Marcus noticed several glances directed at him, and he swallowed, tugging slightly at his cravat. His lips pressed into a line as he weaved himself through the sea of guests. His face contrasted with the expression his mother wore. He didn’t know if she genuinely enjoyed these types of events or if she had attended so many that she had gained a practised mask to put on.
The grand ballroom felt too small for him, and he almost felt like he couldn’t breathe in his attire. It wasn’t just the formality of it that unsettled him and caused him to feel restricted. It was the air of expectation and—yet again—scrutiny that was common at these types of events. He hated it.
His eyes scanned the room, his gaze narrowing as he noted the crowd of enthusiastic debutantes and their overbearing mothers. Gentlemen across the room busied themselves with polite conversation about matters he didn’t care to know about right now.
Right now, all he could think of was the solitude the home he’d left behind offered and how every single person here held the potential to be a threat to that solitude.
“You do not need to look so grim, Marcus,” Her Grace cautioned, the inviting smile on her face not faltering even as she spoke.
“I do not look grim,” Marcus defended himself, but his indifference grew.
“Your Graces.”
Marcus and his mother turned at the masculine voice, and he steeled his shoulders. He was prepared to be greeted and to greet—formally, but when his eyes landed first on the petite lady, his breath caught.
She certainly isn’t the bearer of the voice, he thought, his brows knotting.
For a moment, he was transfixed. As their eyes locked, he found himself intrigued by her warm brown eyes. There was something about them that he couldn’t describe in one word. Her eyes held a depth of emotion that he had never noticed in the eyes of any other person at functions like these. It was not the superficial gaiety to which he was accustomed. No, her eyes were anything but that, and they somehow managed to hold his gaze longer than he intended. He expected her to avert her gaze or to have some shyness in her demeanour. However, she didn’t, intriguing him more. He studied her appearance, noting the lushness of her honey-blonde hair, and how it complemented her eyes.
It was only after that moment had passed that whatever spell held them bound was broken.
“Lord Clifton,” his mother addressed the man that stood next to the young woman. He suddenly realised why she felt oddly familiar to him. Even though he didn’t associate himself much with these events, he had heard of Lady Emily. She and her family certainly kept the gossip mill abuzz. As much as he stayed far away from gossip, it was hard to miss all the talk about the Cliftons’ past financial woes and Emily’s engagements that turned sour.
He thought it admirable how Lord Clifton had managed to revive the state of his family’s affairs and their standing in society in the time he did. His shrewdness in rescuing the earldom his late father had left to him had proved him to be a truly resilient man.
“Lady Emily,” his mother said to the honey-blonde-haired woman with her smile widened. “What a lovely ball you have put together tonight. The decorations are quite impeccable. Impressive taste you have got.”
Lady Emily curtsied, a graceful smile lining her lips. Lord Clifton bowed his head.
“Thank you, Your Grace. We are most grateful for your uplifting sentiments,” Richard said, smiling proudly.
“With the start of the Season, you surely have set a high standard tonight. I’m sure the duke would agree.”
Richard and Emily turned to the duke with anticipation.
Marcus might have disliked the need for his presence tonight, but he couldn’t deny the tastefulness the ballroom had.
“Lord Clifton. Lady Emily. I wholeheartedly agree with my mother. You outdid yourself tonight. Thank you for having us,” he said.
Emily clamped her smile down. Her eyes met the duke’s, and she bit her lip. His Grace wasn’t someone anyone got to see often as he didn’t attend social functions quite often. His presence was rather scarce even in these sorts of gatherings. She had heard of him several times but hadn’t laid eyes on him in years. Seeing him now, she would be a liar to say he was anything but handsome. Devastatingly handsome even.
His tall, lean figure that stood in front of her captivated her in ways she was surprised by. He had this irrefutable charm and striking countenance that weakened her in the knees. His strong jawline and broad shoulders were accentuated by the distinguished velvet evening coat he wore. His dark brown mane covered every corner of his head that it should, gleaming in the light of the candle. His features were so perfectly proportioned that Emily fancied he had been fashioned on a day of leisure when the artisans were at their finest.
Emily held her breath. The duke was certainly a vision of delight. She could only imagine how much the mothers of the ton wished he could be their son-in-law. The young ladies of the ton would fall over themselves for his attention, no doubt. For some reason, she didn’t think His Grace to be a man who’d enjoy such attention.
Suddenly, an unbecoming thought entered her mind and rather than shoo it away, she nursed it. Her eyes darted to his arm, noticing how the fabric of his coat stretched against his upper arm. She imagined her arm on it, and wondered what life might be like to have her arm on the arm of a such a gentleman as the duke. Certainly, that would silence those judgmental ladies of the ton for good. Lady Worthington and Lady Bennett, together with their daughters, would contrive some frivolous gossip about her, snorting and sniggering in their corners. Yet, she was well aware that, beneath their mirth, they would undoubtedly be lamenting the lack of opportunity for their own daughters to enjoy such esteemed access to the duke.
Emily was tempted to smile. The thought pleased her indeed. But the savoury moments of it were soon snatched away by reality and she felt a drop in her chest, shame washing over her.
There was no way her imagination could ever come into fruition. Not with the reputation she currently had. The duke probably didn’t remember her name or her family until this moment. There was no point daydreaming when to her, he’d never see her as anything other than what society already deemed her. No one would see her as anything more than a scandalous spinster.
By the time she got out of her reverie, His Grace was already speaking to her brother about politics or something of the sort. The dowager duchess had been joined by Lady Martin, and they were conversing about social gossip.
She cast her gaze elsewhere, silently wondering how much longer until Charlotte revealed herself. At least, that afforded something else to think about.
“The estate is doing much better now, and I’m just thrilled that all the hard work put in is finally paying off,” her brother, Richard, said to the duke, who offered kind words about how resilient Richard was.
Marcus was delighted that he wasn’t engaged in some baseless conversation with some blithering gentleman. He had learned in the last few minutes that Richard Clifton was indeed great company to have. The man was intelligent and spoke confidently. But still, he found himself wishing he could think up an excuse to escape to one quiet corner of the ballroom where he could see everyone, but they would not be able to see him. Especially not the excited young ladies and their mothers who had kept stealing glances at him like he was a forbidden fruit. Too sweet to touch and eat, but too sweet to ignore entirely.
He groaned internally.
Thankfully, it wasn’t as bad as he had anticipated. Surely, he had to engage in conversation with others as he couldn’t keep Lord Clifton to himself. His mother had gone off to join some ladies and he occasionally spotted her here and there.
It was going to be a long night.
In spite of how he felt, the ballroom was alive with the soft hum of conversation and music; one could feel the anticipation that hung in the air, all on expectation for Charlotte’s grand entrance. His eyes roamed the arena, seeking anything of interest other than the hunting topic that was being discussed amongst the men he stood with.
His eyes found Lady Emily and he narrowed his gaze at her. She was speaking to one of the ladies, smiling as she spoke. He watched as she moved towards the grand staircase, stopping at the foot of it. Her palms smoothened over her gown, and she glanced at the top of the stairs.
She was completely oblivious to him, and for some reason, he couldn’t stop staring at her.
While waiting for Charlotte’s entrance, Emily felt a swell in her heart, one mixed with pride and nostalgia. In a matter of moments, Charlotte would make her debut into society. Years ago, at this very spot, she had stood during her own debut. It was a bittersweet memory now. Emily sighed. It was pointless dwelling on it now. She was here for Charlotte.
“Well, you sure make a phenomenal hostess.”
The familiar voice pulled Emily’s attention and she inclined her head to the right to see her friend, Miss Louisa Everton, approaching her with her mother in tow. A bright smile crossed Emily’s face.
“Louisa!” she chirped, embracing her friend once they were close enough.
A comforting sense of warmth enveloped Emily, dousing the anxiety in her chest. Louisa’s presence always did that to her, and she was ever grateful for it.
Louisa and Emily had been friends since childhood. Like Emily, she was a spinster as well, slightly older in her late twenties. Emily always considered herself blessed to have a kind-hearted friend like Louisa.
Louisa chuckled, wrapping her arms around her friend briefly.
“Lady Everton.” Emily acknowledged the older woman in their midst with a curtsey. She had always been intrigued by how much Louisa resembled her mother. Lady Everton was no doubt a perfect image of what Louisa would look like when she was older; she was the spitting image of her mother.
Over the years, as they grew into adulthood, Emily and Louisa’s friendship deepened as they bonded over their shared experiences. They had supported each other through one disappointment after the other, and their seemingly inability to meet society’s expectations.
“Emily, dear, you have done a wonderful job tonight, I must say,” Lady Everton expressed, with a smile that reached her eyes. “Everything looks rather tasteful.”
“You should host balls more often,” Louisa chipped in.
Emily smiled her gratitude. “You both are too kind to me with your words. Thank you.” Her smile widened as she glanced around briefly, pride spreading within her chest. “Although, I cannot take all the praise. Richard was a great deal of help, and he wanted this ball to be nothing short of spectacular.”
“Then, I’m sure he must be proud too,” Louisa said.
“I would like to think he is. Otherwise, he wouldn’t have had such a wide smile all evening,” Emily replied.
The three women chuckled.
Suddenly, all the chattering and music stopped at once, and the room fell silent. Emily’s gaze followed the intrigued eyes of the guests and halted at the top of the staircase, watching as Charlotte appeared at the top in her pink gown looking ever so delightful.
For a moment, Emily could sense her cousin’s nervousness, standing as the object of every single person’s attention. Charlotte’s eyes scanned the ballroom, a knot tightening in her stomach. As soon as her eyes met Emily’s, she felt that knot loosen slowly and a gentle smile crept up her face, mirroring Emily’s. She had been prepared for tonight and with Emily and Richard present, she knew she had nothing to worry for.
After the moment passed, Richard came to stand next to her, offering her his hand. Emily’s gaze trained on them as she watched her cousin’s descent. Soft music had started playing again and hushed whispers moved about the room. A lump formed in Emily’s throat, and she held her breath. She knew how important this was for Charlotte. It was her official entrance into society. She knew, despite the smile on her cousin’s face, and the awestricken looks on some of the young men, that it would take more than beauty to secure a good match. Everything had to work out perfectly. Charlotte couldn’t end up like her.
“Charlotte looks absolutely ravishing, dear friend,” Louisa leaned in to whisper, her gaze not faltering from the star of the evening. “You really outdid yourself, Em. The girl is more than lucky to have you. I assume she must no doubt be nervous. But seeing you here will offer her the comfort she needs. Well done.”
Emily’s genuine smile could not be mistaken. “Thank you, Louisa.”
With Charlotte present now, the ball was set to begin in earnest. She made her way to the dance floor with Richard, ready to take her first dance. Silently, she prayed she would not forget any steps or trip over Richard’s toe.
“Breathe, my dear,” Richard told her, his voice soothing. “You’re doing wonderful so far.”
“Thank you. I’m really a ball of nerves inside, but your words are most appreciated,” Charlotte said.
Just then, the orchestra stroke up a lively tune. Emily’s eyes followed as Richard guided their cousin through the dance steps. She observed as Charlotte eased into it gracefully, as she’d been taught. A bittersweet smile tugged on the corners of her mouth, the memory of her own first dance rushing into her. She could never possibly forget the excitement she felt in that moment, with a mix of nerves of course. Richard, bless his heart, had done his best to help those nerves, engaging her in conversation about the ton. She remembered how he’d made jokes about Lord Houghton’s attire and the fact that it seemed his entire family took after him. Even now, as she saw Charlotte occasionally laugh and giggle, she knew he was doing the same thing to help her.
Emily forced the bittersweet memory aside, focusing on the radiant smile Charlotte donned. There were several approving nods from the guests, and even a few jealous looks from ambitious mamas and their daughters. A smirk outlined her lips. She basked in the triumph she felt. Mentally, she gave herself a pat on the back for her success so far with Charlotte.
“Oh, Emily, I cannot thank you enough!” Charlotte gushed a few dance sets later. She had joined her cousin, Louisa, and Lady Everton by the refreshment table. Excitement pumped through her; her nerves long forgotten. “How did I do? Did I miss any of the steps?”
Emily laughed. She handed her a glass of lemonade, and said, “You must be parched.”
Charlotte muttered a ‘thank you’ as she accepted it.
“At this rate, you’d be parched more times than one before the end of the night,” Louisa joked.
“You were great, Charlotte. I’m not even certain I can dance like that anymore,” Emily told her cousin. “At least now we’ve given Lady Worthington and the frequenters of her gossip mill something else to talk about.”
Lady Everton snorted lightly. “With the start of the Season, I’m sure she’d find other matters of interest to keep her lips and ears busy. Lord knows how she does it.”
“I’m more concerned about how well she’s trained Lady Celia in her footsteps,” Emily chimed in.
“Family legacy, I suppose,” Louisa added dryly, sipping from her glass.
The four women stifled their laughter, each one trying harder than the other.
“What do you think about Lord Barley?” Charlotte asked, noticing the Earl had been stealing a couple of glances at her from across the room.
“The Earl?” Emily asked, finding the subject in question with her eyes. He was, in fact, staring at Charlotte, and removed his gaze in record time just as he was joined by his brother. Emily didn’t miss the look of admiration in his eyes.
“Wasn’t he engaged to Lady Preston’s daughter last Season?” inquired Emily. “I heard their engagement fell through.” A hint of pity for the young Miss Preston laced her voice. Thankfully, she had gotten engaged towards the end of last Season and was now married, saving herself from the ton’s harsh judgment. Emily knew all too well how that could impact one’s mental and emotional state.
“I believe there were complications with his family at the time,” Lady Everton offered. “Theirs wasn’t a love match so Miss Preston must have thought it best to dissolve the engagement. However, he seems quite eager this Season.”
“He seems to have taken a liking to our dear Charlotte,” Louisa said.
“Well, he’ll surely have to do more than stealing glances from a distance if he wants to stand a chance,” Charlotte added. She hadn’t heard much about the Earl, but she was sure Richard would be able to provide any information she required. At least, he was pleasing to the eyes.
Emily was about to make another comment when she noticed Richard approaching. Her eyes shifted to the tall, handsome gentleman that accompanied him. He seemed familiar but she couldn’t decide where she knew him from.
“Ladies.” Richard’s voice stopped the women mid-conversation and they all turned to him with anticipation. “May I introduce Viscount of Langford, Lord Aidan Langford.”
“Ladies,” Lord Langford said, with a graceful bow. His gaze swept over the quartet of women, but it lingered on Charlotte.
The women curtsied in respect, offering polite smiles.
Suddenly, Emily recalled that she had heard her father speak with and about Lord Langford’s father—rest his soul—when he was alive. The late Viscount and the late Earl had some shared business interests back then.
“Lord Langford’s father was a business acquaintance of our father,” Richard said, glancing at Emily. She gave a curt nod, not missing the hint of approval that laced her brother’s tone. “Lord Langford has just returned from his tour around the continent. Just in time for the Season.” He turned to Charlotte with one corner of his mouth lifted.
“We’re glad to have you with us tonight, Lord Langford,” Emily said, “I hope the evening has been pleasing to you.”
Lord Langford smiled. “Indeed, it has, Lady Emily. Thank you for having me tonight.”
“He has been lavishing praises upon the evening’s ball. I daresay he is exceedingly pleased,” Richard remarked.
“I’m sure Charlotte here would love to hear some stories about your travels, my lord.” Emily’s tone was suggestive as she cast a brief glance at her cousin.
The Viscount turned to Charlotte, just as the orchestra was about to begin playing and a charming smile formed on his lips. His eyes sparkled when her gaze reached his, and his heart swelled with expectation.
“Miss Clifton.” He held a hand to her, his smile widening slightly. “Would you do me the honour of sharing a dance with me?”
Charlotte’s cheeks flushed, her eyes glittering, as she placed her delicate hand in his. “I would love to.”

Martha Barwood
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Mary Ann 29th January 2025 Reply
Can’t wait to read the rest.
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Can’t wait to read the rest.